I'm used to people misunderstanding me and thinking I'm a bit weird and even delusional. But simply to acknowledge to myself that I found my soul mate, and hope that in some other life we will be, or are, together. Not because I feel he and I are married, I'm not delusional. I even wear wedding/engagement rings on my left hand. I'll will never get to a place where I'll wonder how I ever cared so much. I'll never get over him, and I know I'll never be married, because no one else can measure up to him. So, if you are like me, all you can do is go forward. You can imagine, this just made things all the worse. I always knew how his day had gone without speaking to him all day, and was able to literally feel how his day had gone, somewhat similar to what twin siblings sometimes do. I am able to actually feel the emotions of someone I'm very close with, even if we're miles away from each other. They actually want sex with men even if they don't know them well or feel a deep connection to them. I was shocked to find out that other women don't just "go along to get along" with a man in order to find someone to marry or spend their life with. I always thought they were really heartbroken and suicidal like I was, but that they were just better at hiding it. I never understood women who coiuld get right back out there with a guy, or several guys, and have casual sex after a major breakup. This means that I can only be with someone I love deeply and have an emotionsl connection with who feels the same about me. In addition to being an INFJ on the Briggs personality test (which basically means I'm introverted and intuitive, that I make decisions more on what my heart tells me than what logic tells me, but that I'm also able to be fair and unbiased, balancing between what my heart tells me and what I know to be true and real), I'm also a 'demi-sexual'. I never knew why until I was reading about unusual personality types. All the "Get right back in the saddle" stuff doesn't work for me. In my situation, all I could do was trudge forward. I found the anti-anxiety medication more helpful. I had never needed them before, and the antidepressants didn't work. I cried myself to sleep every night for eight months before it finally got so bad that I told my doctor, and she prescribed antidepressants and anti-anxiety medication. Not because either of us wanted it to, but just due to things being extremely complicated. Due to a difficult set of circumstances, it ended after four months. We both said we felt like family from the start. He really "got me" as no one else ever has, and I believe he felt the same. We were on the same wavelength with just enough differences to compliment each other. Take what you learned from this relationship and give it to someone new who will benefit from your experience. And you're now open to having new people in your life. If you'd been fighting a lot, now you have less stress. Try to think of all of the positives that not being with that person anymore will bring. And most importantly, you will get to a point where you realize it was probably for the best since it was clearly not working out, and may have ended even worse if it had dragged on.
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You might even get to a point where you have to think hard to remember why you ever cared so much. You WILL get to a point where you move on.
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You WILL get to a point where you aren't so angry. I just have to get to that point." If she can do it with physical pain, we can do it with emotional pain, too. A friend of mine had dealt with excruciating physical pain for years as a result of a car accident, and sometimes people would ask how she dealt with it and she would always say "I just have to tell myself it won't hurt like this forever. (Burr), Peggy.Just trying to remember that it won't hurt like this forever. "The Schuyler Sisters" is a song from the Broadway musical Hamilton performed by Renée Elise Goldsberry (Angelica), Phillipa Soo (Eliza), Leslie Odom Jr. Hamilton the Musical - The Schuyler Sisters Lyrics